Wow, tonight was actually good! I asked my husband what he was doing to help our marriage (have I mentioned we start our second time with marriage counseling soon? With a counselor who specializes in helping couples where pornography has been an issue)
His response was that he was watching what I wanted to do with our family and trying to support me with it. Tonight for example I was exhausted and didn't have it in me to wrestle a bunch of kids and have scriptures - so I didn't even suggest it. He called the kids in for scriptures before bed.
We talked a little bit about my struggles. Very brief. And then I felt very close to him and suggested being intimate.... He said no. He said that he didn't believe I was healed enough to do that yet. I was suddenly very attracted to him! This is the man I fell in love with. This is the man I want to stay married to. The man who cares more about me healing then the fact that he hasn't released in 2 weeks.
He also shared how he makes sure to log off the Internet on his iPad after the kids go to bed, and he turns on conference talks to fall asleep to.
This has been a nice night. - and I feel just fine sleeping in a separate bed tonight, supported, loved and safe sleeping in my own bed.
Thank you Lord for good days!
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